I’ve been thinking a lot about writing just recently, and as a writer I suppose that shouldn’t be that unusual. But I haven’t just been thinking about writing – I have been writing. So even though I feel I’ve lost my ‘mojo’ I ain’t got the dreaded ‘Writers Block’ where I stare at an empty page.
Self doubt is something that affects everyone at some time during their lives, maybe even on a regular basis. Any ‘professional’ who is worth their salt, will question whether they are good enough, have they done enough, could they do better? So it doesn’t have to be a particularly negative experience, just perhaps a little frustrating. I’ve come to the conclusion that a little self doubt, now and then, can be quite healthy. It makes us stop. Take stock. Have a look at ourselves. Delve deep and think about what it is we really want. Self doubt isn’t a notion particular to me as a writer. Am I a good mother, partner, daughter, sister? Was I good nurse, manager, care giver?
For me it’s all about writing it out. Drivel, scribbles, doodling – call it what you will, but at least I’m writing. As part of the CampNaNoWriMo challenge I’ve set myself a goal of writing for 15 minutes per day (at least) to a given creative writing prompt. You can read about how it’s going on my blog, Louise Charles Writer, where I gabble on about my writing process. And it’s working – I’m pushing down those thoughts of I can’t do it and making it clear that I can and I will. And I’ve started on the first substantive edit of Wolf Moon, my next project for self publication, so watch this space.